I had the most amazing conversation with three amazing women on the way home from a concert last week. It was late. We were so open and honest with each other it was refreshing. Wounds were discussed, sins admitted, motivations uncovered. It may have been one of the most raw conversations I’ve ever had. And it all started with a question from the driver, a previous roommate of mine. She introduced the topic of “self image” and then said “discuss.”
We began to talk and had some really good conversations…but as I was falling asleep last night, I started to think about it again. It was ironic then that on The Today show this morning there was a woman who wrote a book about our self-worth as women and how we need to be empowered to stand up and be heard…or something like that, I don’t know, I stopped listening.
How important is our own self-image? I mean, in the grand scheme of things, how important is what we think of ourselves? Maybe if we could actually grasp what Jesus thinks of us when he sees us, we wouldn’t care about our self-esteem and self-image and self- worth. At Crusade last week, a pastor spoke about the Gospel and related it very well. He said that when God looks at us, he doesn’t see us. His opinion of us is his opinion of his son, Jesus Christ when we are washed by His blood. God’s limitless grace allows us to wrestle out our sins and issues within his grace, and his opinion of us never changes from that of his son. Our motivations for doing good don’t need to be to make him love us more (which, truth be told, is often my motivation).
What would it look like if we actually GOT that? If our motivation was solely because we loved our God and were content with his never ending, limitless love and grace for us?
We would stop worrying so much about our own self-image, self-worth, self-…centered-ness…
I had more to say..but I’m tired of typing and all I can think about is the fact that I have two brown spots on my brand new white shirt that i was so excited to wear tonight…and the fact that I want juice stop.