I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again: I love being a mom. My little girl is napping right now, so I’ve been resting (and sweating! man it is hot!) on the couch and just looked out over the living room where there lies a pile of toddler girl clothes that I had sitting on the table in preparation to pack for when the new baby arrives, but Bailey of course decided the pile looked better on the floor. There’s also a baby doll laying face down under our kitchen table (my baby doll from when I was little I might add), and various other evidences of childhood scattered throughout our home which bring such joy to my heart. I wouldn’t trade my time at home with my child(ren) for anything.
The closer we get to this new little girl’s arrival, the more nervous I am becoming. I know many great women have gone before me into the world of two (and many more) children, and not once have I heard “it’s not worth it” or “it’s too hard.” However, I still can’t wrap my mind around loving two little girls as much as I love my not so little girl right now! Maybe I’m more nervous that Bailey won’t understand how my heart can be so in love with both children at the same time. I pray all my children grow up knowing full-well without a doubt how much their mommy and daddy love them, and I pray that love points them to the perfect and all emcompassing love of our Heavenly Father.
Although I still have 4 weeks and 2 days (but who’s counting, right??) until her due date, this little one may come a little early I’m afraid. My uterus (can I write that word on this blog? Not sure I want to tell you how long I debated on that one) has been so irritable since starting the 3rd trimester that I’ve had contractions (more than just Braxton Hicks) this whole time. The past couple days have been particularly rough…but we’ll see what the doctor says at my 36 week check up next week.
Still waiting on The Lord for James’s job pursuits. What a lesson in patience and trust and faith this has been! But whatever happens, our hope rests in Jesus and nothing else, and I pray that wherever we end up, this season of waiting will be made quite fruitful in our family’s life for the sake of His Kingdom.
With that, I’ll end with the extremely encouraging word from Revelation this morning. Our God is big. And he can handle all that his plan encompasses.
“I am the Alpha and the Omega,” says the Lord God, “who is and who was and who is to come, the Almighty.”
Amen and amen.